One thing? I think I know my one thing I just learned recently.That one thing is letting go. Letting go all the negative emotions and tell myself I should just move on with whatever I have.

Three months ago, my father was diagnosed cancer. Lung cancer to be exact. It was a huge surprise. I spent one week tried to calm myself down, thinking that it wasn't true. Until I realized that it really happened. My father is not a smoker, which made me think how unfair the situation was. Then I blamed God for this. Oh, how so unreligious I was...and because of what I said my boyfriend decided to break up with me. I was devastated. Especially because at the time I was doing my thesis. Can't it be worse?

Then I ran into some self-help books, psychological and new-age books about meditation and positive feeling. I was hellped, a bit. Until I finally realized that I should try to be relax. God is still there and God is kind. God has a plan for me. Whatever that is. I started to realize that though it might have seemed shitty for me, things will change. As a wise saying I once heard from My Best Friend's Wedding, 'This too shall pass'.

Like magic, afterward, I felt like God sent me signs everywhere to keep my head up and to believe. However, one week ago, letting go is the lesson God gave me. As I was driving, this has always been my way to feel relax, I was strucked by an idea that I can just let go off all my burdens and let the angels carry them for me for a while. There is nothing I should be afraid of, because God is watching my back. I also learn that although it's really hard to love seomeone and doesn't expect anything in return from that person, I finally made it. I decided, although my ex has hurt my feeling over and again, to forgive him, just by letting go. Not knowing. Not counting. Not trying to make it even. I also realized that although he might not love me anymore, but love does't have to reciprocate. I can just go on and love him and don't expect anything. From now on, I can just let go. Feel free to love him and yet don't get hurt anymore.