Bringing home the bacon...or having the place to store it?

shooting script

What I do, without a shadow of a doubt. From my dream home post its obviously clear that I don't have a clue where it is I would desire living one day, I stole the description from a song.

My writing on the other hand? I couldn't ever imagine living without that being the way I supported myself. I've already sacrificed relationships, living conditions and my social life just to get my career off the ground. (Like so so so many others I am well aware)

I can't explain just why it is such an easy choice between the two, i think living in a fuck off mansion is a bit easy to feel content with. The warmth and homely qualities can usually be bought if not attainable immediately.

With a job, a career. Its so much more about finding yourself i believe, it's a very real fear of mine that I would one day wake up and just detest myself for following a strict set of company goals, commissions and bonuses. With writing that nightmare seems quite impossible, I could just as likely wake up in Ten years time and hate myself for not having made a secure life for myself, but i think the transformation of Writer to work monkey is more achievable than the other way.

I know this because I am refusing to settle for anything else at this current time in my life. Short term happiness will continue to pass me by and a few longer term goals if I really suck, including the dream home or area in which to live in. It doesn't really bother me, my dream goals, homes or otherwise all exist in the stories I tell.