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      Absolutely not. It's a train wreck. Ten years ago, I had a full-time job, my own apartment, and my mom was still alive. Now I'm on disability, living in my mother's house, and she died less than two months ago. Ten years ago, I had my ducks in a row. Now, they've all been slaughtered. I can't imagine what it's like to lose everything and to be homeless, but when the bank takes the house in a few months...well...I'm about to find out. If I had known that the sole purpose of my life was to be terrified out of my wits every single day for the entirety of it, I wouldn't have bothered sticking around for it. I have no past. I have no future. I have fear..and that is all that I will ever have.

       
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    Diana-Liliana said:
    I'm sorry about your mom.I can't imagine how you are feeling right now but the reality is that when it rains it pours.When your life starts to go down the drain it's like all the evils in the world are coming your way.and even though you're scared or emotionally drained , you have to keep fighting for tomorrow.things do get better when you least expect
    posted about 1 year ago
    rbafroggie said:
    Oh Diana...if only that were true... :'( I miss her so much it hurts.
    posted about 1 year ago
    Diana-Liliana said:
    well it's normal. if you didn't feel that way it would be strange. was she sick?
    posted about 1 year ago
    rbafroggie said:
    Very, very sick. She had peripheral artery disease and chronic obstructive pulmonary disease from years of smoking. Both of her legs had to be amputated below the knees (one in June of 2009, the other in December of 2010). She had a lot of trouble breathing. She lost her health, her independence, then her life...and I had a ring-side seat for the whole ordeal. I don't think I'll ever recover from it.
    posted about 1 year ago
    Diana-Liliana said:
    It is hard when you're sick and depend on other people for day-to-day basic things.I'm sorry she suffered like that and I know what I'm going to say is incredibly cheesy but I am absolutely convinced that she would have wanted you to get over it and move on and focus on your own like once she was gone
    posted about 1 year ago
    Diana-Liliana said:
    you'll suffer and you'll feel sorry and you'll miss her but that doesn't mean that if she's gone you're gone too.
    posted about 1 year ago
    rbafroggie said:
    Diana...thank you so much for your comments. I truly appreciate them. Of course, you are right that my mom wants me to focus on my own life. She was trying to get me to do that when she was still alive. Right now it does feel like I'm gone too...but from what others have told me that have gone through this before, that is completely normal. It is just going to take lots of time. :)
    posted about 1 year ago

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