Me? ask for help? are you kidding? I am not stupid, I can do it. I don't need any help.

Hope. Which Way?

I do prefer to figure things out on my own. I rarely ask for help with anything. I think it is an independence thing. I want to be in charge, I want to feel like I have accomplished "it" on my own. I worry about looking foolish or "stupid' if I have to ask for help or directions. I wonder why that is? Is this some childhood trauma that needs to be dealt with? I know I was a bit of a geek as a teenager, although not a brainy one. I was the girl who didn't fit in because I didn't have the nice clothes and I was not good at sports and I was extremely shy.
Now that I am an adult and well into my adulthood I may add, I have overcome the shyness, I have a great wardrobe and while I am not athletic, I love hiking and canoeing and rock climbing as well as other individual sporty things.
So the question remains, why do I feel uncomfortable asking for help?
I think this question is opening up a new area to explore and I hope grow. Time to get out the journal and let my thoughts spill out onto the pages.
Thanks for listening and ... um... .. I am asking for help... any advice?