Slow Time in Wrist Watch on Dry Leaf

Well...this is kinda deep for me...

Last week I had a dream about my Father, who is deceased. I remember that we were in a car with my Mom and my best friend at the time. I am not sure where we were going or coming from, but my Father and I were having a subliminal conversation. I recall asking him if everything was better and he responded yes. I remember thinking, "Ok...cool. So everything is back to normal."

Prior to my Father's death, he had been sick for years. He went from being an independent, proud working man to a consistent on-again, off-again debilitated man. Unable to work, unable to care for himself, most times unable to walk, and always in pain.

So, in this dream, I was taken back to the times when he was "himself" and healthy. No words where ever spoken in this dream, just the car ride.

I woke up confused. I was lost. I didn't know where I was. I couldn't understand what was going on.

I laid completely still for about 5-10 minutes trying to figure it all out. Once I realized that something was not right, my mind went back in time to the dream and fast-played forward. That was one of the worst recalls in my life. Why? Because I had to revisit everything just to bring myself current.

I remembered that my Father was dead.

I had never been so lost, mentally and physically, before...