"You Worry Too Much" DUH.

stress

I stress myself out by worrying. Worrying about my kids, my husband, my dog, my mother, my sister, my friends, victims I don't know and I worry about myself. I worry about sickness, death, and the flavor of the week on the news i.e. terrible shootings. Worrying about worrying. I "pre-worry" when I have absolutely NO CONTROL over any outcome. In psychiatric terms it is called "anticipatory anxiety." What good does that do me? IT DOESN'T DO A DARN THING. Yes, I know this but sometimes it's hard to switch the channel. I am too sensitive in both a good way and a bad. I am incredibly sensitive to others, compassionate and intuitive at the same time I take on other people's issues to heart and feel for others. A lot. I have tried to change a million times with no luck. I have heard "You are too sensitive" so many times I could scream (especially when it is said by totally insensitive people) I KNOW THAT, I DID NOT CHOOSE TO BE THIS WAY. So, give me a break. I do deep breathing, I've tried all the tricks but this is who I am. PLEASE, TRY TO BE understanding, know I worry because I love and I care. Maybe I care too much but don't you think that's better than not caring at all? If I could be a cold-hearted, non-worrying-bitch I'd have a much easier life. Sorry, no can do. I worry. I care. And that's okay.