self destruction

it came naturally as a child to me and thats what started it all. life is like trying to fly a kite in a storm. i'm a book of stereotypes ranging from eating to not, from sleeping to not, from working out to not, shopping to stealing, drinking to experimenting, from no relationships to terrible ones. and back. and than back and forward some more...

you can only pull yourself out of a hole. and any hole there is, you've done you're part to dig it. trite as it sounds i swear you have to hit absolute bottom before you can even begin to level out. it's only than that you can even honestly ask for help. and you can never quit until you do it for yourself.

me? i can never quit. a vice is a breath of refreshingly pure comfort. comfort that it is always there for you. it's like a mother, no matter how much you can claim you don't need one, you always run back to her when the world is falling..when everything fails.

self destruction is like having a gay friend in the closet. you know you always have someone to party with.