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- June 30, 2010 by Lostbutf0und
- I Never Believed This Was Possible - But Now I Do
I've never felt loved by my mother whilst growing up.
I did however feel loved by my father, he would do all sorts of things with me. Swimming, ice skating, museums... etc.
Btw , I was adopted and my a-mom would constantly point that out. She though I guess, this would make people think of her as a better person for taking me in. Or maybe she liked the attention you get by saying it. I would bring friends home and just out of the blue she would say "did you know that she's adopted"
She left my father when I was young and took up drinking and promiscuity for a hobby. Bringing strange men home and hitting me when I didn't go outside to leave her "alone"...Grrrr.
Oh well, that was life for me then. Living in solitude,dirty clothes and nibbling on uncooked spaghetti for dinner.
Years later at the age of 16, I had a child of my own and couldn't understand how someone could not love a child...even if it's not your own. A baby is so pure and innocent. I had this incredible motherly instinct.
I became pregnant again soon after and felt scared that I couldn't love my second child as much as my firstborn. But the Lord gives a mother enough love for all her children.
So, I never believed I would experience motherly love. How wrong was I , I'm experiencing it right now.