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Usually, I just stay up late answering Plinky prompts or talking to friends or (pretending that I'm) studying. But this isn't how to cure insomnia, it's how to make it happen.

If I can't sleep, I usually drink a cup of Chamomile tea with a bit of honey. After that, I'll usually just sit in my room for a bit, trying to wind down. I try not to look at the time, and then after half an hour of sitting around relaxing (not on the computer) I usually hop into bed, put on my eye mask to block out all light and ear plugs for noise and am usually asleep within 15-20mins or less.

That's easy! If it were possible, I would do almost anything to see:
1. The Beatles
2. The Doors
3. Jimi Hendrix
Seeing as that's impossible, I guess these will have to settle:
1. Nick Cave (and the Bad Seeds)
2. Pearl Jam
3. Tame Impala (again)

Do I deserve an apology? No. I deserve SEVERAL, all of which I know I will never get. I am saying no more on this particular matter.

Do I owe someone an apology? Yes. And because I'm too afraid to say it to your face due to the sheer awkwardness that will follow, I will apologise now:

"I kiss the cold, white envelope. I press my lips against [your] name."
Whenever I think of how you were affected by my decision, I imagine the music we love as the soundtrack. I remember elements of the past two and a half years and almost cry, because I'm sorry for so many things. I apologise for how stupid I was, and how I didn't pick up on any subtle hints. I apologise for how I continued to keep you waiting. I apologise for not doing anything further than the action already taken. I apologise for lying, and turning my back on you, twice. I sometimes picture how things might have been if I chose differently. I don't regret my choice, but I regret knowing that the very decision I made affected you so heavily. There will always be room in my heart for you, as a friend. Before it was something more, because for a long time, that's what I wanted you to be. I feel I can't apologise enough. If you understand, let me know we're even. I hope we are.
"[Because] I wanted to be, I wanted to be, wanted to be, your good friend."

Ah, Melbourne. It's a fabulous place, full of quirky people and hidden alleyways full of little places eagerly waiting to be discovered.

Many hollyweirds and wonderfuls live in the flourishing city of Melbourne. I was informed yesterday that apparently Daniel Radcliffe has a place in Toorak. Lisa McCune lives in Richmond, as does Ben Cousins (but the latter isn't really important). There's plenty of rich laywers, CEO's and doctors hanging around the place too. I'm not quite sure about other famous people that have dwellings here, I don't really care much for knowledge of the 'elite'.

As far as landmarks and attractions go, there's Fitzroy Gardens, which I love. There's Eureka Tower, Crown Casino Complex and the MCG, as well as a shiteload of other places. There's the Old Melbourne Gaol/Jail, the State Library with young hipsters frollicking about and kissing each other madly on its lawns, Parliament House, the Icehouse (yay figure skating!) and Lygon Street too. Oh, and Luna Park!

Annual events (or even just wonderful events) include the AFL Grand Final, Melbourne Fashion Week, Melbourne Internation Comedy Festival, Melbourne International Film Festival, Melbourne Food and Wine Festival, The Grand Prix at Albert Park and Melbourne Cup. There's the Big Day Out and the Annual Melbourne Show.

Other than well-known residents, landmarks and uber cool events, Melbourne is home to the number one university in Australia (at this point in time, seeing as the number one spot is interchangeable between The University of Melbourne and the Australian National University in Canberra). Melbourne is also home to possibly one of the worst public transport systems in the world. Of course, we particularly give thanks to Metro Train Services and Myki for making this possible.

Apart from a few minor things, I think Melbourne is a pretty liveable city, although some everyday living requirements aren't as inexpensive as I would like. It's home for many young and thriving people, determined to one day make a difference in the world. It's a city full of energy and life, one never gets bored. I could sit in Fed Square or on the Flinders Street Station steps (although so many sub-human species loiter around the area there) and just watch people live their day to day life. Or I just dawdle and wander around aimlessly, always discovering something wonderful. This is also what Melbourne is well known for, wanderers. I'm proud to be one of them, because for me, I'm always discovering something new and fantastic. And that's Melbourne alright, fantastic!

There are some (rare) circumstances in which I could wait forever, but most of the time I get frustrated when things don't happen as quickly as they should or things that simply don't deserve my time and energy. Three of these things in particular, are:

1. Bogans. I think this is fairly obvious. For all you Brit's out there, think chavs, but worse. For Americans, rednecks.

2. Slow internet. Again obvious. Australia is so slow on the uptake when it comes to the Internet functioning as it should. Besides, no one likes waiting even more than 10 seconds for a web page to load.

3. Socialist Alternative, the completely left-wing Marxist group/club/society at my University. I'm convinced they follow me to my classes, and just wait there until the class finishes, because as soon as I walk out of any particular building, they're always there trying to persuade me that no one should work hard to be wealthy. In fact, let's have no wealthy people at all and redistribute income and assets equally. No. People should earn their assets and income in some way, and be deserving of the rewards they get. Besides, Marxism, Socialism and Capitalism have never really worked. People aren't happy and no one is ever really equal because there has to be a head of state that reinforces that equality. Thus there is a figure above everyone else, who has more assets and wealth and therefore, distribution of assets is unequal and therefore there can be no real equal society. Now seeing as I have taken a blog about three things I have no patience for and turned it into a political rant... I have no patience for the members of Socialist Alternative because of the impracticality and impossiblity to put their theory into practice (practise?). I mean, I'm all for helping people recover from serious loss and giving impoverished, homeless people a roof over their heads, but that's totally different to what I'm talking about. Maybe I should shove a copy of George Orwell's 1984 in their face, demand they to read it and then ask them to tell me if Socialism is beneficial to society.

I don't understand the motivation behind the things some people do.
I don't understand how people can be so heartless, masochistic, mean and sadistic.
I don't understand quadratic trinomials or anything else to do with Math Methods. Yay for Maths Further!! :)
I don't understand why it is so hard for some people to be loyal to someone else.
I don't understand why there are so many bogans near where I live, nor why they turned out that way.
I don't understand why my orthodontist has a vendetta against me and won't take my braces off my perfectly straight teeth.
I don't understand why I have so much left to say, yet I can't bring myself to say it.
And BAM, the dirt is gone and I'm done.

Attend Pyramid Rock or Falls Festival AND Big Day Out
Because music festivals are the deal, and all three usually have awesome line ups. Plus I missed out on going to BDO this year, which sucked because I had to work instead.

Driving
I need to get my hours up for my log book. Had my L's for a year already and only 13 hours, not cool. Need 120 hours in a year to date.

Beaching It
Just because I can, and it's the beach and it's Summer, come on!! Nothing like a good tan, reading on the beach and swimming in the ocean.

Melbourne
Again and again and again. And again. Melbourne, it sells itself!

Road trip is to Qld with the cousin
Because he promised me ages ago he would. And also because I've never been to Queensland. Ever. Seriously, I shit you not.

Anything else that comes to mind
Simply because I can't think of anything else at the moment.

Because it's simply an amazing book. It can be tedious in parts, but it's just written so coherently and brilliantly, and poignant. I like it a lot.

The fact that it's so corny makes me want to cringe sometimes, and the fact that Sandy changes to please someone else goes against my belief that you should never change for anyone, just be yourself.
However, I can't help but love it. I sing along to every song, pretty much word for word and it's such a feelgood movie. After watching it, I spend the next three days after singing "You're The One That I Want" and "Summer Lovin" at random intervals during the day.
It's the perfect party movie and the songs are perfect for karaoke. (Spelt that right?! :S) The movie brings a good atmosphere and a lot of fun and that's what makes this oldie a goodie :)

The most random things ever, like green iPod Nanos, CD's of my fave bands, pretty cocktail dresses, polaroid cameras and film, Razzles, red roses, Lindt chocolate, pretty scented things, Poprocks, fairy dust, books, pillows, Vogue, Yen and Frankie magazines, flowers, cool ornaments, bubble mixture, Poptarts, copies of arthouse films, apples and pears, Shakespearian dresses, colourful things... Just because they're awesome! Oh, and miniature versions of myself, because I know everyone wants a little bit of Emma.