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      • Hey, just saying 'bye'. Not feeling the plink anymore. Read some, amused some, not feeling like answering these prompts encourages anything good in me more than some.

        Have fun writing =)

      • answered by joyz on 05/28/2009
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    • Read the novel The Summer Movie is based on

      • But don't get lost! Remember to apply sunblock by the shotglass.

        Honestly, I ordered other books*, but they are being delivered to work and not in time.

        So I'm re-reading this in prep for the movie and will probably bring along some Chinese and German language textbooks. Because that's enjoyable. Maybe something to read in Spanish.

        NOT bringing GRE review books like a goodkid would.

        To the (lake) beach! In a few hours! After hopefully other things work out...

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        *Pride and Prejudice and Zombies, The Best Christmas Pageant Ever, The Phantom Tollbooth, Cringe, and The Princess Bride

      • answered by joyz on 05/22/2009
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    • Martha will love my Raw Data

      • Raw Data
        I run a query on performance for her products. I lay it out in Excel, gently, formatted. Marketing report, mmmm.


        Analysis
        I draft an email, a story about how the data got where they are. (Yes, plural this time.) This story builds on experienced intuition and savvy offerings. It shows intelligent strategy and action items come to fruition, wending their way through the internet marketplace, winning over consumers. It paints the path going forward and the changes that will allow her account with us to ride out the storm onto glory.

        (Editing makes the story read more in line with the reality of marketing and less like a medieval thriller.)


        ROI
        A number. A percentage. And it is high, high like a .... school musical. 3. (Please to forgive.)


        Gratitude
        Thanks for being a client, Martha, and thanks for making dinner. I was just gonna run down to the fried chicken joint.


      • answered by joyz on 05/21/2009
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    • We were "on a break"!

      • It's a week and a half before my birthday and I'm going to be seeing my long-distance boyfriend soon enough. [If you do not know where this is going, you are not paying attention.] I'm in my bright living room, top-floor, good light. Glass doors overlooking the city. I'm answering my phone and ... I'm unwillingly put 'on a break'.

        I hate that idea. It's not for me. You are either for me or not. You don't get to relegate me to 'on hold'. No. Nut up and make a decision that has consequences. If you want to be 'on a break', too bad. I'm not going to do that. Make your decision and get back to me. I'll be wherever I happen to be. And stop calling like nothing's different!

        Anyway, we got back together (or he came off break, depending on who you ask). Who knows why I did that, but I did. Maybe I thought, I should have a relationship that makes it to an anniversary. But we didn't even agree on when we started dating because he assumed we were dating on a dubious "maybe". I don't think these are unilateral decisions.

        So I realized, fuck it, nice as he is, we don't fit. I never want to marry this person. I'd trust him with all the regular stuff, but not with who I am. He can have my past, but hell if I can see him having my future as well. We'd always be fighting, but I'd be the only one bothered by it. He'd assume it wasn't that big of a deal. If we didn't break up soon, I'd only remember him as that giant man-baby who needed time to think and me to pamper him, screw what I needed.

        We're both definitely better off. Now I think of him as the guy who shared a lot of scrapbook-worthy and real moments with me and made a lot of them possible. But he wasn't going to keep being that guy.
        _______
        P.S. I will do the Memorial Day wrap-up, if that comes to fruition. That's another story currently on the rocks and in the works, but hoping for the best. It might work out after all.

        P.P.S. 30 Rock came out the gate strrrrrong, mang. Strong. Hot dogs for the good people! All the smug a-hole linejumpers in a non-food-receiving line to the left!

      • answered by joyz on 05/20/2009
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    • Joy to find in every station, something still to do or bear

      • If I had my own misguided way, I'd be self-medicating with makeouts and Ambien all the time. [No thanks, Valium. I want to be out.]


        Irene Cleaners demolition; sneaking onto the site after work

        The most relaxing is when I succeed in convincing myself that I am new and that I am unique and I am not to be overburdened by my humanness. This allows every experience, failures inclusive, to be mine and counteracts the shame that keeps me flying straight. That sometimes threatens flight.

        The closest I've come when I lived alone in Texas. I would get a slight headache. Then I'd smell the storm coming. I grabbed a towel, pulled the garage door closed behind me, and padded barefoot across the red patio tile. I set out the towel on the grass. I stretch out on my back, arms out, eyes closed, better than any damn snow angel. Cool rain, slightly warm air, and God's own baptism, as my Dad called it. Big sky and freedom to be.

        ______
        "Like a cancer in your body, it all just goes too fast."

        Now, I usually try the distract and purge rather than the relaxation. I may be secretly afraid that if I stop moving, some sort of sorrow will swallow me and I'll die.

        [This is ridiculous if you've talked to me in person because I am ridiculously silly and have done lots of trucking through 'sorrow'. I laugh at the word 'poop'. I just don't want you, Plinkernet, to think that I am a depressive in danger; it is only the best way to describe the feeling. We're saving that internet wonderstory for the, God forbid, body identification.]

      • answered by joyz on 05/19/2009
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