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    • Considering a derelict house: character revealed
      • Derelict house

        Abandoned, neglected, old.
        If it were kitchen appliances, I wouldn't even hesitate to throw them out, to wonder why Goodwill offers another chance at such a piece of junk.
        But buildings?
        I am instantly intrigued, drawn by their untold story, their blighted history. Someone designed, dreamed and built…what happened to cause the abandonment, the loneliness? Was it a broken business deal? A loan that didn't go through? A love affair gone sour? A death?

        Then my mind puzzles into the present: who owns it now? Do they even know what it looks like? Do they drive by, disgusted by the dereliction - or the default of promise? Do they promise themselves that this week, this month, it will sell, things will change?

        And I wonder, with tender hope, about that relic's potential: who might be looking at you? How would you look with a new coat of paint, some landscaping, a new roof? Would renovation finally bring you a new story to tell, infuse hope into the neighborhood, even the town?

        I see character in each old building, and with a select few, I long to touch their potential in a dream-scape renovation.

      • answered by just_jan on 06/30/2011
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    • Forgive me, but I'll hold onto those…thoughts
      • Brainstorms at INDEX: Views

        The temptation to a mental voyeur is unspeakable.

        Why do you think I read so much?

        Would it truly show more than that - more than other's drive, intentions, or struggles? Could it make me more patient that morning, more kind that afternoon, more humble that evening?


        I find the image of Jim Carey, (Bruce Almighty) his flippant declaration of fix-it-ability better than God's: overwhelmed in a moment by yellow post-it's of that morning's prayers, requests, desires. Even the dog is covered!

        Jim (Bruce) discovered what I believe I would: that I am given just what I can handle, just the niche I was created for. The opportunity and vision are enough for what I hear and see by daily breath.

        Would I glimpse in a day, the thoughts that most strive to hide, cover, avoid.

        Would it make me stronger?

        How grateful I am, that only the forgiving Father hears. Loves. Accepts, and continues to teach me, despite what He hears each morning, afternoon, and evening - both from my mind and my lips.

      • answered by just_jan on 02/23/2011
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    • Sleep alights
      • dreaming tree

        Bring the sky a little closer,
        cross the winner's tape,

        breathe.

        Lighten aching shoulders, back, thighs,
        until I reach a child's forgetfulness of this day's work.

        Breathe.

        Sighs, in the chrysalis of sleep, become songbirds
        a metamorphosis so desired,
        I fly.

        And what remains of my flight when I rise,
        are two hopeful eyes,
        rested limbs,
        and
        a breath.

      • answered by just_jan on 02/16/2011
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