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- hello Elizabeth
- Username: orangexpants
- In response to: "What do you do on the side?" I run and practice my violin.
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orangexpants's latest answers
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- Million dollar question
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I blog because it's helps me organize my thoughts, which have been disheveled and jumbled all day. Sometimes I write things that inspire me; sometimes I just talk shit. I love blogging because there are no predetermined rules about "good blogging." I don't have to worry about my "audience," because I'm writing it for myself. We all need ways to purge out our frustration, anger, or sadness, and blogging is how I manage them. Blogging may not give that immediate relief that cigarettes and strong liquor may provide, but it helps me if I want to think through a problem and figure out a way to solve it or accept it. That's why I blog.
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- Charitable
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public school.
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- All grown up?
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I think the first time I felt like a grown up was when I started working full time as a teacher. People expected a lot out of me and little excuses just didn't cut it. Plus, if my personal life was really that bad, I am expected to take a leave of absence, not bitch and moan.
I love my job, though. It was hard at first because I was forced to do a lot of things I wasn't *ever* comfortable doing--such as, answering phone calls; leaving voice messages; returning phone calls; showing everywhere on time; always having several backup plans; being flexible with super last minute changes; thinking very quickly and efficiently; pacing myself; comforting others; validating their emotions; apologizing even if I didn't feel like I wronged anyone; accepting anything with open gratitude; SPEAKING UP; raising concerns; resolving issues face-to-face...
I think the shift from young adult to grown up is a good thing. I feel a lot more confident and brave than I was before; I feel wiser and more humble. I still have lots of room for improvement, but overall, I think being a teacher has helped me become a better human being. Maybe being a grown up isn't all too bad.
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- Writing room
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Beach. I would see an empty white shore and a purplish blue body of water. There are no clouds in the sky. It's just quiet and peaceful. I would have a beach house there and my mahogany desk facing the side of the beach. I have every window opened so that the salty breeze could come in and out. There's not much in this one-bedroom beach house: a small bed; an armchair with a footrest; a kitchen, and a desk where I can read and write.
There's no one else living with or near me. I am all alone, in solitude, with nature. I have a bicycle that I can take to visit a library that is opened 24/7. This library is magical because it contains every book known to mankind and yet the building is no bigger than an old bookshop you might find somewhere downtown. I enter the building and there is no one but me. I am the only client who checks in and out; I borrow books to my heart's desire. There are no late fees because once I am done, the books find themselves way back to the library. If I get hungry or thirsty while reading or writing, I can snap my fingers and create a cup of hot chocolate and warm gooey chocolate chip cookies out of thin air. They are of course served in a beautiful lime green china. There is no concept of time where I live. Everything is in the now. Things may grow, die, and regenerate, but I am not worried about aging or death, because there are no deadlines to beat. I am happy because I can read and write to my heart's desire; I don't have to worry about money or relationships or how I even look everyday. All that matters is that I'm living happily, doing what I love doing, all the time. I'm not worried about anything because there is no judgment here. I am enlightened all the time. I wish a place like this really existed somewhere in another universe.
