I can only pull of certain colours because of my skin tone. I'm really pale so I can't have really dark colours like black (wish i could tho). I figured out recently I can pull of purple hair, and red. The only shade I know won't suit me would be blonde.

Nicholas Sparks.
I want know how he writes such heart warming novels.
that or JK Rowling because I would love to hear her talk how she created such a phenomenon

My current one.
there's this girl, lets call her clue yeah? When Clue came into my life, I suddenly felt this upright, happiness that I haven't felt in a long time. She actually made me laugh and smile and actually feel good about myself for once. I never had that. Ever.
I guess you're wondering, what made Clue so special? I'll could write you a whole list of reason why I love this girl but that would take forever so I'll give you the main reason; She make's me happy. I'll be honest, i have been curious for some time and it was this girl, clue; she made me see sense of my sexuality. But also because she was actually saving me, i've been upset over numerous things. Things that have proper deep down, was tearing me apart and I was losing myself on the way. And this girl, this little way of sunshine was keeping me together. She was actually helping me,
I started talking to her everyday, and each day made my worst days feel good again. Each day I was falling more and more in love with her. Yeah I guess this is a strong word but that's how I actually feel, even now I still love her. After months I debating to confessing I finally did, on the night the girl she adored broke her heart (which broke mine) She kept asking why now one loved her and why she was shit with love. It was then I confessed how I loved her.
I remember what clue said to my response how I loved her with all my heart; "that's nice" I'd admit it hurt a tad but I wouldn't give up. I showed her how special she really is, how she shouldn't let someone ruin her world. In time she confessed how she loved me back, and it just... indescribable how happy it made me feel. I even asked her to be mine ( i'll admit in the corniest way) but when she accepted; it gave me such hope. But after a while .... (the names I could use for this person are endless and negative) came crawling back and wrapped clue around their finger. Basically they said jump and clue said how high. That's how I see, i actually see ... what they really are. Enough about that.
Clue soon began to focus all her attention on ... once more, leaving on the sidelines when .... didn't want anything to do with her.Leaving as the puppet, the fucking idiot. Everytime when clue needed me, I was there; all the time. When she was down, i there ready to pick her up, do whatever it takes to make her happy. But after all this, I got tired, I was slowly wanting to let go because this constant, fleeting between me and ...., hurt every single fucking day. At times I just want to let her know how she makes me feel. I just want to scream until my lungs cave in because her constant ignorance is tearing me apart.

So Clue if you ever read this, before its too late.
I just want us how to be how we use to be, laughing and having a laugh. I don't care if you don't feel the same way, I just can't stand you pushing me away. Please talk to me, please show me what happiness feels like. Because I no longer feel it. I guess thats why I try to something you call stupid and dangerous. But have you ever wondered you pushing me away was one of the many reasons why I turn to the blade. People tell me I should get over you and cut you out. I keep thinking I should. I keep finding the many reasons I should cut you out but theres this one reason why I want you in my life. YOU MAKE ME HAPPY.

So please clue, I beg of you. Keep me in your life. Please? I know i'm not perfect and at times i fuck up alot. But I can show you how good I can be. I just need you in my life because if I didn't have you, I don't know what i'd do. I don't see the point of me being alive. At all. Yeah i know it sounds crazy and stupid, but I just know i'm so shit scared of losing you. So please.Please stay in my life? Please?