I worry about not being good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, nice enough. It's really depressing.

Tea. I have hyperthyroidism so can't drink coffee.

The word responsibilities make me flinch, they just sound really harsh. That's what life is all about anyway. My Mom raised 7 children without Dad's help, and she did it so phenomenally well. She told us girls many times that being a female means making a lot of money for her family , being pretty and good-natured at all times( for her husband's sake), and also giving birth so someone could take on your surname. For me, that's like a very creepy chinese concept of being woman. If these were the standards for my being a female, I just wish I was never born 5555. Anyway, I would like to think my own responsibilities would be to stay alive, and have as much happiness in my life as I could.

I wish I were closer to my friends that I met when studying abroad. We wanted to keep in touch, but many years passed and we kind of got lost in our own lives.

My younger sisters and brother. Actually we always have a really great conversation. I like conversing with younger( or just unmarried ) people because they don't talk about work or money or their children all the time. They can chat about music, movies, shopping, travel, even pets ,and I share their need for freedom. They are also usually more open-minded as opposed to those who are married. I appreciate older people giving me business advice and talking about children, but to be honest, those things bore me to death. Then again, I have never been a very ambitious person and it's not good 555.

I wish I spent more time exercising. I tried to practise yoga a while back, but it hurt every part of my body. Maybe flexing and stretching is never going to be my thing. I could opt for jogging with my dog, but it's become boring. Alright, I need to stop being lazy!

Luffy is his name. He has been with me since he was only two months. He is now 12 months, how time flies! I grew up with a mother who is animal-phobic, so I never really got a chance to know any kind of animals. Now that I do, I find all animals, tamed or wild, amazing in their own ways. If I could relive my life, I would have become a veterinary.

My husband
He keeps me sane with his enormous patience and cuteness.

Free time
Leisure Leisure Leisure!!

Music
It can heal our souls.

Kindness
When people show that to me, I would remember that act forever.

Family, siblings
They are fun to be with, but sometimes they can also make me feel stressed and under pressure.

Friends
They understand who I really am.

A stable income
I don't need to be rich to be happy, but stability of it sure will put my mind at peace.

Travel
I like seeing new things.

Iced lemon tea
It is cooling , refreshing and tastes so damned good.

Nature
The sky, the greenery, the sight of nature puts me in a good mood.

Being able to be myself
Sometimes people just don't approve of who you really are. They always want you to be the PERFECT version of a human being. That standard is just not for me. I need to laugh and embrace my imperfections.

Frog congee. Urgh..... I didn't know they were frogs until I saw their little green legs...

Violence and cruelty to animals.
Judgment.
And ...people who don't queue up, they just push their ways into any space in front of you!!!

1. I get angry when hungry. I can't quit this really, it's like in my blood because I notice my father is exactly the same.
2. I'm a loner. This one, I can't quit either even though I have tried it.
3. Purchasing the things I don't need, like high-heeled shoes that I wear like once a year, or handbags that look exactly the same as the last one I had bought. What's wrong with me?
4. Feeling fatter and uglier than everyone else around. i should try to quit this b/c it shatters my self-esteem.
5. Dogs, I'm addicted to them. I don't think it needs quitting, because dogs are not really meant to be abandoned to fend for themselves.

That's about all I hope?

It's surprising how your priorities could change once you are plaqued with a serious illness. The most romantic thing that someone has done for me was staying by my side all that time that I was sick and unable to move out of bed.